I have to say, writing these fitness updates is sort of getting depressing. I am nowhere near the fitness level I once used to be, and my workouts lately have been sporadic, to say the least. If you read my post from a few days ago, you know I was having lots of inflammation and pain issues this week– probably the worst its been in a long time. While I had grand plans this week to get back into strength training, when I woke on Monday (and Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday!) I knew there was no way that was happening. The fact my back was literally spasming on a few of those days if I moved a certain way ruled out any type of exercise period– even walking hurt. So rest, rest, rest it was.
I have been really struggling lately with all of this. . . despite how much I try to avoid it, I can’t help but have a type of all or nothing approach to exercise. I know it’s not good at all, but sometimes, I feel like if I can’t go out and run ten miles, why bother stationary biking for half an hour (which is the only exercise other than stretching my physical therapist recommends). I have been trying to overcome this by reminding myself a little movement is better than none at all. Hopefully someday I will be able to ease back into running, but for now I need to take it easy and concentrate on recovery, which is really hard to do because my moods are so tied to the endorphin rush I get from a good sweat sesh.
I am also sad that today, in Providence, there’s a half marathon going on that I was hoping I would be able to run. I remember mentioning it on the blog a few months ago– I was having aches and pains back then too, but hoped I would be better by May. Well, clearly that didn’t happen! I do have another half in my sights that I believe is in September, so I hope by then I will be good to go.
I really only exercised on Saturday of this past week– I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike and 30 minutes on a very low-impact elliptical at my gym that kind of simulates running. I also did some lifting for my arms and shoulders (7 exercises, 3 sets each). My husband and I also went for a 4.5 mile walk on Saturday that I felt pretty good on in terms of my leg. I have been doing my stretches pretty consistently too. Yesterday, the husband and I went on a 5.6 mile walk in the sunshine.
Needless to say, I am feeling pretty low about all of this but I remain optimistic that I will eventually be OK.
Have you ever faced injury? How did you deal with the mental aspect of it?